”This is going to be huge! 1900 imagine!” she exclaimed to William
She wants the whole world to hear her enthusiastic hopes for the years to come. She is certain that the nineteen hundreds will bring great improvements to the women condition. She is already hearing about women’ emancipation in some closed groups. Soon, women would be considered equal to men and would have the same opportunities. ”Soon” she thinks. ”It has to happen soon”. She doesn’t want to wait any longer.
”When it happens, my work will be regarded for what it really is and not as the hysteria of a spoiled brat, as they say. As soon as we enter the new year, everything will change. Perhaps, even William will ask me out”. Her thoughts are interrupted by William’s interjection.
”Yes, hey look who’s here, your friend…”
Albert walks directly up to William and punches him in the face. William takes the blow, surprised, falls on the floor and getting ready to hit back but Mileva stands in front of the two men.
”Stop, please stop!” Mileva cries out
”You will have to choose Mileva!” adds an angered Albert
”Chose what Albert? We are just friends, nothing more! I thought she was with you!” William answers holding his aching cheek
”What?” Mileva tears up. ”What do you mean? I love you William!”
Albert gets ready to hit William again. William hold a hand up.
”L…wait Albert. No. We are just friends sweetheart.”
Turning to a discombobulated Mileva, he adds ”I don’t share those feelings, am so sorry…”
Mileva pushes William and Albert and runs between them towards the door into the school’s hallway. She’s crying and hurting as if a jacked edged knife just tore her heart wide opened.
She cannot believe what just happened. She wants to think it is a nightmare and she is going to wake up any second. The cold air of Vienna’s night hits her in the face. In a similar manner, reality just punched her colorful dreams right out of her mind.
She stops and leans against a wall. Her mind is running wild as she remembers the faces staring at her, the fingers pointing towards her disgrace. She had thrown herself on a man who didn’t feel anything for her. She had made a spectacle of herself in front of everyone. If her father hears of her misconduct, she will definitely be banned from going to school again.
Mileva cries, hoping that a sudden catastrophe would take her out of her misery. She turns her head and sees a heavily breathing Albert standing next to her.
”Please leave me alone Albert, please” Mileva pleads crying her eyes out. ”I want to die right now” she adds in utter shame and embarrassment.
Albert first tries a joking approach.
”I hit that guy for no reason, imagine how I feel?”
He smiles and adds
”I might get expelled”
Mileva doesn’t smile, answer or move. She is petrified by her agony. She would love William to be there comforting her, not Albert. She admits, Albert is always there for her. But he scares her. She feels too tired and devastated to think.
A few moments go by. Mileva shakes as her thin dress cannot protect her from the winter air nor from the guilt she feels inside. Albert removes his jacket and covers her with it. He becomes very serious and offers his feelings as a balm to her wounds.
”I love you, I love you Mileva.”
Mileva pushes Albert back and tries to escape but he grabs her arms and stops her from moving.
”Stop it. Do you hear me? Calm down, you have to calm down. I love you. I always loved you.”
Mileva calms down as Albert hugs her tightly. He kisses her forehead and she relaxes into his warm arms.
”Come on, come with me. I’ll make you feel better.” Albert adds leading the way as they walk out into the streets full of snow and festivities.
People are celebrating all around them. Many intoxicated men. A few prostitutes trying to get a client or two. A couple running late to a party. The trolley bus passing in a hurry as carriage run through the streets.
Albert holds Mileva tight wanting to warm her up and make her love him back. His anger got the better of him as he saw Mileva flirting with his competitor. He always found him lame, feeble, almost feminine in his ways. He could not understand what Mileva saw in him. Of course, he came from a wealthy family just like she did. Nonetheless, Albert felt that he was a real man, the kind of man a strong woman like Mileva needed. He would find a way to make her his, no matter what it took. Feeling her vulnerable body close to his, after seeing her dress rip as she ran off, Albert starts feeling aroused.
He opens a door to a tinny room filled with books of all kinds (mostly science and mathematics), some on his bed. He leads a confused freezing Mileva in. She looks around her and notices the small bedside table overloaded with more books. In one corner, a small wood fire stove with a cast iron pot and some dirty dishes makes the most of his kitchen.
Albert moves the books from the bed to the floor. He removes his coat from Mileva’s shoulder and puts it on top of his pile of clothes… He lights up the stove. Pointing to the bed, he invites Mileva to sit down.
”I think it would be better for me to go.” Mileva replies looking a the claustrophobic kind of environment
”Come on Mileva, what would your parents say? You would probably mess up their party and would have to explain yourself. Come on sit. Have a drink. It is New Year’s eve after all. We should celebrate the new Millennium.”
Albert pulls out a bottle from underneath a small pile of clothes and finds a couple of cups on top of his wardrobe… He pours some alcohol in each glass and gives one to Mileva. As she pics it, he toasts and helps her sit on the bed. She resists and then agrees, drinking.
”I made such a fool of myself.” Mileva weeps
Look Mileva. It doesn’t matter. I do love you you know that. I always loved you…”
Albert moves some hair from Mileva’s face and caresses her neck. She let’s him. She feels tired and slightly inebriated not accustomed to drinking hard liquor. Albert fills up her glass and lifts it up to her lips.
”This will make you feel better. I want to make you happy.”
He caresses her face. She drinks some more. He takes her cup and puts it on the floor. She feels dizzy. He approaches to kiss her. She let’s him. His kisses become more passionate. He caresses her dress, holding her breast, he pushes her back on the bed. He moves on top of her.
”Albert no, I don’t feel it is appropriate. Please stop.”
She tries pushing him off but he is too heavy and she is too drunk. She has no strength left in her body and Albert is not listening. He stops her from talking by kissing her deeply. He moves her dress up and unbuttons his pants. He gets in her passionately, kissing her lips. He moves a few times and comes inside her rapidly.
Mileva’s mind is lost in a flow of drunken thoughts. She is saddened and angry. She feels betrayed. Albert kisses her forehead and caresses her hair. She doesn’t have the strength to push him away. He is happy. He made her his and she will have to love him back. According to him, they will marry and she will support his research.
”Happy New Year sweetheart”.
Mileva looks up at the ceiling, silent.
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